Judas’ Provisional Reprieve

((in Poetic Prose) (‘the Judas Dilemma’))


There were twelve apostles that sat at the table, Abraham, Adam, Moses, and Micha’el, the Archangel; they were to look at the provisional reprieve Judas had requested. And the questions were:
“Judas what did your mind see?”
“Immortality?”
“Did you not see the All-being, immutable and enduring?”
“Did you not hear the words, “Believe in me?”
“Did you to pause like Lucifer to start an iron war?”
“Did you think you were immune of your future sins, your stained window?”
“Were you in a state of unreality, thinking you were invincible to the apostate you were?”
“When did your dream of a splendor and glittering end to the Trinity?”
“Did you think you had just enough, to do what your dreams and desires wanted you to do; only to find out it was all merely a vision in- extractable (removed from reality) and forever placed into idealism; did you not think a court order would be issued unto you, upon the day of judgment? Was it not your own self-made longing, your barren spot, your private destiny, private donjon you wanted to create?


Then one of the voices sitting at the table, a judge, as they all were except, Judas, who would have his say later, said:
“Somewhere in time and space, the fragility, and strength of your faith was tested, as if measured by a gauge; we are subject to this, starvation was found in you, as the records now show, and if you could, you would have taken the Godhead, which remains intact, had it never been otherwise, and reversed it. And that was why you lost your position, not necessarily when you stood on the stone floor and took thirty pieces of silver that was forgivable. Yet that day, you being a man, failed man, and into the second phase of your brief pretense, make-believe charade, you went, filling your belly with bitter and glory for a throne you could never sit upon, disclaiming the Holy Spirit. That is what you believed in, what the records show, what the movie of your life came to be; and that is what your destiny came to be, its end. Had it not been that day, you would have known no better for another, time in any dimension, in any form or place is your moment, no one else’s.”

Then Judas said with agony and criticism,
“He (God, our Lord Jesus Christ) could have put me into a new time, a new age, in a new world, with different passions, where man discovers God, and does not lose sight of him, and perhaps a new gene in the recovery of hope which all men seem to lose and only a few regain, which includes me.”

And the Verdict was given, by the last judge, on behalf of all the judges:
“From where you have gone, you shall remain, in the arms of enmity, for did you not say, ‘But not I.’ Denying God’s rightful position. And did you not flee from fidelity and watch the Lord pass? For even the shadow of a breathing man, owes his loyalty to his creator!”

And there he stood, Judas, holding the chalice that held the unpardonable sin…!

Note: Written in the evening of 12-13-2008, in my apartment in Huancayo, Peru, No: 2530 (part two, to ‘The Judas Dilemma’)